I feel like I need to write something.

There’s a recurring challenge in my life that continues to resurface. It causes me real stress. Without going into details, I know I’m part of the problem — but even with my best efforts, I can’t seem to get out of this hole.

It feels heavy. Heavy to the point of not being able to carry it. My emotions fluctuate all day long. I move from hope — trusting that God will get me through — to frustration and even anger, because no clear solution has presented itself. I experience moments of relief, but the burden remains. The weight doesn’t leave.

I try to cling to Scripture. Psalm 23. Philippians 4:12. I’m trying to trust the Lord. I’m trying to use the resources He’s given me. And yet, I still find myself in the same place.

I wonder if there’s a deeper spiritual lesson here. I think about the Israelites in the desert — complaining even while God was meeting their needs. In the truest sense, God is meeting my needs too. It just feels like barely.

So, I’m choosing to keep trusting. To keep praising Him, even here.

Can you relate? Are there recurring challenges in your life that feel heavy no matter how hard you try? I’m praying for you.